reconciling things

“Allow it all to happen: beauty and terror…” Rilke

“So far as a man may be proud of a religion rooted in humility, I am very proud of my religion; I am especially proud of those parts of it that are most commonly called superstition. Continue reading

October 12, 2014

Even as I was starting to appreciate ancient Catholic doctrines, there remained this thing about Baptism.  I believed strongly Anabaptist theology (Believer’s Baptism), that one must be old enough and aware enough to know what they are doing.  They must be believers themselves, desire the experience, and request the experience.  In addition, Baptism was something that we did as a sign of what had already happened inside.  There was nothing about the water that saved us.  It was simply an act of obedience, symbolic only.

I’ve heard other arguments for infant baptism and for Baptism being a sacrament.  But, never got on board.

Then I read this from St. Hildegard and in an instant, my theology shifted: Continue reading

I was in the first trimester of my eighth pregnancy.  I was having dinner with two girlfriends one evening when suddenly I started bleeding and cramping.  Terrified, I excused myself from dinner and drove home.  I remember there were Christmas lights in the trees and the city looked beautiful.  But my heart was racing.  I prayed all the way home–starting with Our Father and then Hail Mary.  Any previous reservations I had about asking Mary’s intercession were irrelevant in that moment.  Mother Mary, pray for my baby.  Please go to Jesus and pray for my baby. Continue reading